Because for whatever reason, even though I want to stay home all the time and be left alone, I want to tell the world who I am now.

The speaker describes a tension between privacy and self-disclosure: an instinct to withdraw (“stay home…be left alone”) alongside an equally strong urge to be seen and understood (“tell the world who I am now”). The phrase “for whatever reason” suggests the impulse isn’t fully rational or controllable—more like a creative or emotional necessity. “Who I am now” emphasizes identity as changeable, implying a break from an earlier public image and a desire to assert a current self on her own terms. Read this way, the line captures a common artist’s dilemma: needing solitude to live and make work, yet needing an audience to communicate and be recognized.