Praying privately in churches, I began to discover that heaven was my true home and also that it was here and now, woven into this life.

Blue describes a shift from seeing “heaven” as a distant, exclusively post-mortem destination to experiencing it as an immediate reality disclosed through contemplative practice. The detail of praying alone in churches suggests a quiet, non-performative spirituality—an inward attention that allows ordinary life to be re-read as sacramental. The paradox (“true home” yet “here and now”) captures a classic mystical intuition: transcendence is not elsewhere but interwoven with the present world. The line also hints at Blue’s interfaith openness—finding insight in church spaces—while remaining rooted in a personal search for belonging and ultimate meaning.