I remember one day sitting at the pool and suddenly the tears were streaming down my cheeks. Why was I so unhappy? I had success. I had security. But it wasn’t enough. I was exploding inside.

Bergman contrasts outward markers of a “successful life” (career achievement and financial/security stability) with an inner emotional crisis that those markers fail to resolve. The image of sitting by a pool—an emblem of leisure and comfort—heightens the irony: even in a setting associated with relaxation, she experiences uncontrollable grief. The line “it wasn’t enough” suggests a hunger for meaning, authenticity, or emotional fulfillment beyond public acclaim. “Exploding inside” conveys the pressure of suppressed needs or conflicts, implying that unaddressed inner life can become intolerable despite external prosperity. The quote is often read as a critique of equating happiness with status, and as testimony to the psychological costs of living in a role that no longer fits.